Kya’s Birthday Note 2017

 

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17. Still going. Still here.

For the people who know me best. I think they know how sentimental I can get and how I love expressing it through the form of writing. So, here it is..
Kya’s Birthday Note 2017.

I have established a new habit regarding my birthday. Instead of celebration, I use the occasion for contemplation, gratitude and evaluation. Why? Because in truth for me, it has no particular significance. Maybe it has for some people and that’s aye okay. I will be evaluating my life for the past year. I did this for the first time last year on my 16th birthday and I look back for 15 years. Now, I look back on one. I hope to continue doing this on my birthday. This year though, I’ll receive my first ID card and for me, that’s a kind of milestone and I’ve been bragging about it for as long as my family can remember.

I’ve came home from Philippines and it has been okay. Not good, not bad. It has been normal and I have absorbed a lot in such a fairly short time. Almost a year only and it left a mark in my heart. I experienced a lot of “firsts” there. Do I miss the country? heck yeah.

As far as growth, I grew very little in height, change very little in appearance and religiously happy. Religious growth is something I have been trying to work on. Thankfully, it’s been good. Generally, I think I have experienced, learned, discovered, overjoyed, angered, worried and unbothered by a lot of things. Still progressing.

The people around me are very diverse in their background and I’m thankful. I get to observe quickly and pick up knowledge right there and then. I have been independently educated as of late and I like it very much. I worry less about the school environment, which in my own opinion is mentally unhappy and unhealthy. It helps to get out of there and enjoy the world of education on my own. Regular school is okay but, I have enough of that, thank you very much. For those who are skeptical of homeschooling, honestly, it is liberating.

I have also discovered a lot of people that I have to continue to coexist with even though I have very limited impression on them. Especially after all the things happening in this fairly okay country. But, that’s okay. Coexisting, remember?

I have always think about my future and it has gotten intense lately. Pressure from the outside prompted me to shut my doors to the point that I don’t even have doubts on only listening to two people and those are my parents. As it should be. My main focus is college for now. I have targets and I am doing my best but, the end result is up to God. I keep praying alongside everything. Truthfully, I don’t mind any results. It is what it is.

So, to sum up, I’m kind of in a place where I’m quite fairly happy. Not too much, not too little. Just fair. I’m transitioning in a way. I think we always do somehow.

Lastly, I have a series of thank yous to express so, here we go.
All praises be given to Allah SWT and His Prophet.
To mum for the best of friend, refuge, comfort and advice. To dad for patience, guidance and awful dad jokes (remember that we always laugh at you and not with you lol jk). To my brothers for arguments, wrestles, sibling inside jokes and all the Star Wars and Game of Thrones marathon. To Oma, for literally everything. To Eyang Kung & Eyang Ti for stories, sleep overs, snacks, affections and laugh. To all of my family for life, adventures and smiles. To Tiur & Uta for being my little sources of joy in the neighbourhood and for waking my inner childlike happiness. To tante Nadia  for traktiran-traktiran pas di Makati dan fangirling ga jelas wkwk.
To A from Chile, for friendship, love and everything in between. To K from New Zealand, for the colourful world of yours, skype calls, roleplays and dank memes. To MC, my big sister in Tennessee for beliefs, trust and faith in God. To P from France, for lessons and good times in the past. To KR from middle school, thanks for staying in touch. To all in the Royal Fandom for all the royally good time. To all in the U2 fandom, you and I are rock n roll. To the amazing people I befriended online, for friendship beyond borders. To my heroes: L, B, A & E for September 25 1976, music, new friends and happiness.

To all of you who read this and everybody that I have the pleasure to know in life. Thank you. Just thank you. I can say that I am very happy today.
God bless.

Father

I pick up a photograph

Reminiscing all the laugh

You told me to look above

Convince myself, I am enough

 

Taught me to fight back

When they mock me

For all the things I lack

Noticing how I crack

 

My very first steps

Not an easy one

Still, forward, waited

Not a frown in sight

 

You are soft

That is your strength

Then you love

And you never left

 

For every harsh

Justifications I did

You stood with patience

Made an understanding

 

You never show

But, you always know

You create your flow

And let them follow

 

And if He decide

The time is now

I shall kneel

Head down, eyes close, weeping

 

But, as long as

Our souls remain exist

I shall try not to commit

An early exit

 

Time is mysterious

Perhaps, unpredictable

But, we shall not blame

Or make it an excuse

 

For ethereal existence

Such as yours, are rare in sight

My love, I say

Remains unconditional

 

-Happy Birthday, dad.


All poems by me are very open to your own interpretation. I, of course, have my own.
Written for and prior to my father’s birthday.

Dysfunctional: An Ode to Disappointment

 

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What was thought to be normal. In fact, dysfunctional. (Photography by: Gabriel Isak)

Sometimes

What you thought was right

What you thought was an ideal way

What you thought as a solution

Went unnoticed

Even ignored

 

All they see is how you

Struggle to make it right

Struggle to please everyone

And sadly,

They seem to think

That everything you do is a fail

 

You took a step

In each one

You planted hope

You put on faith

You made it your armour

And still,

Not enough

 

You would have to climb

The top of a horrid

Materialistic pyramid

In order to fulfill expectations

Set impossibly high

Based on standards that apply

To those who only seek

Fortune in a world

That is full of lies

That is full of false promises

 

You would have to fit

In the mainstream idea

of a complete success

Full of glimmering delight

That only last

Until your last breath

 

Idealistic thoughts

Seems to be a sin

While solely realistic perspective

Seems to be the only perfect way

But, what if realistic

Is not the answer?

What if those that seems real

Is the trap we fear?

 

We only need a little

of their trust

A little patience

A little encouragement

Not instead,

Frontally belittled

 

The initial impression

of love and compassion

Turns out to be a mask

Full of distrust and betrayal

Sparking an anger within

A rage waiting to be unleashed

 

What was thought to be normal

In fact, dysfunctional


All poems by me are very open to your own interpretation. I, of course, have my own.
Written on 1 January 2017. 22:09 PM, with anger.  

SHE

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”Now, she’s a worry made of gray..”

She once believed that

Life, the one she live in

depended on people’s thoughts

It surrounds her mind

consumes her, drives her

Everyday.

Impress, she must

Bits of everything

Constructed into something

Considered perfection

She was compelled

“you have to.”

It echoes, repeated

She failed to realize

Her soul, away and away

Slowly, surely

She was a bliss

Made of colour

Now she’s a worry

Made of gray

She found herself

Not too late

She started over

Painted again

Filled the holes

She once left

wide open

She turned around

Cleared off

her obstacles

Worry again

No, she did not

She stopped depending

Left it off

Let them  burn away

She began to see

Wonders, exist

True colours, exited

Fascination, herself filled


All poems by me are very open to your own interpretation. I, of course, have my own.
Written on 30 October 2016, a little before midnight.  

10 Reasons Why You Should Totally Live Abroad

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Background photo taken personally in Makati, Philippines.

Ever think about leaving your country and start a new life somewhere? Maybe find a job there? Are you moving out as a family? Do you have doubts about it?

Well, I am here to share my experience living outside my home country. These are general experiences that I thought you might want to expect if you are considering or even planning to live somewhere out of your country.

First of all, if you are a bit skeptical of the idea, don’t worry. I get you. It’s a very nerve wrecking process and you wouldn’t know what to expect! So, that little worry is totally okay.

Now, here are the things I’ve learned from my own experience living abroad:

1. There Will Be Changes
Well, obviously it will not be the same as how you use to live. There will be changes and it is mostly great! You will learn things that you never thought you would experience. Besides, not all changes are bad. Who knows? Maybe that change might lead to somewhere even better than what you have now.

2. It is Cool!
Let’s face it. There’s a fraction in all of us that includes what seems ‘cool’ to consideration. If it is cool enough for us, we will do it. And this is true. I am not talking about how it will be a show off material, I’m talking about how it will be cool for you. Living abroad is so cool. You will have fun and find new things to share to people!

3. Food, Food and Food
Culinary is something everyone enjoys everywhere. If you move abroad, you will definitely experience different types of food. From food that is simple to food that is complex. If you’re a person who enjoys culinary, you will love living in new places! Even if you’re not, you still love eating right? Haha!

4. Making New Friends
This is something that will definitely happen, one way or another. You will encounter a new set of people and they will get to know you. You would be surprise on how much people would be interested in your life! People are kind of curious to one another, anyway.

5. Language
You will be exposed to a whole new language. Especially if you move to a non-English speaking country. My experience of moving abroad is to the Philippines, where majority of people speak the native language Tagalog. They do speak English in markets or places alike but, Tagalog is still the main language. If you move somewhere with anything other than English as their first language, it will be weird at first but, interesting along the way. Plus, you can have a new set of vocabulary from a different language! There’s no downside to that!

6. Hospitality
Expect kindness! Yes, you read that right. People tend to be kinder to foreigners. That’s fact. If they find out you’re not a citizen of their country, they will most likely be kind enough to treat you nicely. They will likely offer help and other small vital things. Like where to shop, where is the hospital, nearest market, basic phrases in their language, etc. They are usually willing to provide you with that information!

7. Culture
Cultural exposure is something that will definitely occur. Whether you realize it or not. If you live somewhere long enough, you’ll find yourself getting use to their customs in a little while. It is usually great, you will notice few differences with how you use to live along the way.

8. Eye Opener
Living somewhere that isn’t originally home will definitely be an eye opening experience. Wherever it is, it will be different. No place are the same. You might be surprised, you might not. But, it will definitely made you learn a lot. Even the little things that you notice.

9. Appreciative and Tolerant Towards Others
We are one but, we are not the same (yes, I quoted U2. Haha, sue me). We have different views on life, religion, politics, things, etc. Even other human beings. We might notice people who are slightly different from us. We can’t be selfish about it. We should all just live in harmony and peace. Living somewhere that isn’t home will definitely open up yourself to be kinder, more considerate and caring towards others.

10. Unforgettable Experience
It will no doubt, be an unforgettable experience. At least for a point in your life, you experience something entirely different. Not everyone has an opportunity to pack their stuff and just go. Not everyone is as lucky as you are. You will appreciate it, be grateful about it and never forget it. Who knows what kind of life you will live there. Make the most of it and be happy.

There you have it, folks. I really hope if someone who is planning to move out somewhere read this, they won’t have doubts or at least would consider it more. I have to admit when I receive the news that I will move out of my country, I was really skeptical of the idea. I spend quite a lot of time thinking about it even though I don’t say it to anyone. I am just like that. I keep a lot of things to myself. Maybe, not anymore with this one.
But anyway, that’s not the point, haha. Really, the life lessons I learn here are priceless and I won’t experience it the same way somewhere else. If I move again somewhere, it will obviously be different. But, that’s the exciting part!

Somehow the idea of uncertainty can be very appealing. The idea of not knowing what’s ahead of you might attract you even more. The idea of having a little gray once in your life and not always a definite black and white is somewhat mesmerizing. That’s the beauty of living, the joy of discovery and it’s so extraordinary.

So, enjoy your journey, people. Live it. Be grateful for it and good luck!

Kya’s playlist: ENYA

“KYA LISTENS TO ENYA???”
Yes. Yes I do. Although not too much and I wouldn’t call myself a huge fan of Enya. But, I always find her music incredibly fitting in some specific moments.

I have compiled a list of songs I really love to listen from her. Most of this came from her Best of album. Like I said, I am not a huge fan of Enya and I don’t really follow or keep track of everything. I also include 2 songs from her new album Dark Sky Island. I love the tracks!

Her songs are the type you would listen to when you need to have some time alone. I also find her songs to be great as a reading and/or studying companion. And obviously, when you need to relax… Enya would be perfect, am I right? Hahaha.

Anyways, I’ll present to you, my Enya playlist:

Athair Ar Neamh (Father in Heaven) – This was also the wedding entrance song of HRH Princess Sofia of Sweden when she was about to marry HRH Prince Carl-Philip of Sweden. It brought everyone to tears!

Storms in AfricaThis song is really great for your background music as you study.

Only TimeI mean… literally everyone know this song.

Trains and Winter RainsIt’s…. peacefully catchy. Haha!

A Day Without RainI listened to this before sleep once. I had a great sleep.

Echoes in RainSong’s great. But, you should check out the video. Enya looks flawless!

Even in The ShadowsNuff said.

There you have it! My Enya playlist! Hope you enjoy it as much as I do. Although, I am not an expert in Enya’s discography, I can say that I do appreciate her as a musician.

I would say I have quite a wide range when it comes to my music taste. But, I always set myself to be open towards any types of music so I would have more reference in my musical gallery.

That being said, I’ll end this post right here! Thank you.
Hope you all have a great day!

Gifts from France!

On my birthday (February 2nd), I went to the post office to pick up a package I have been longing to get!

My friend, her name is Margot. She had promised me to send a few stuff. This promise was made in December 2014 hahaha, it’s literally a year later she made it happen!

So, the package arrived and I have to pick it up to the post office. I went there with my mum and I was so excited because I was expecting it!.
I went to the pick up window and deal with the things yada yada yada… they pick up the stuff and do some checkings. The package’s box was broken when it got here. I was so worried that there are things that broken there. But, I was relieved when I saw it’s all alright.

Here is a picture of the stuff I get!

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These are the things that were in the box:
2 Game of Thrones books
3 U2 CDs
A candy cane (which by the time I wrote this blog post, is already been eaten by me and my brother, Raky)
A cute souvenir from Alsace
A cut out picture of the French Prime Minister, Manuel Valls. Because, I like him and Margot decided to include a picture of him to send to me, haha.
A scribbled restaurant menu that was an inside joke between me and Margot.

I am so happy to receive these. I am currently thinking about what I should get for her. I wanna send something back!

This is what makes me happy to have friends from abroad because you never know what to expect. Plus, it makes you happy to know that you have someone out there, eventhough you never met them, someone out there to call “friend”. You also get to share cultures and views and opinions and it’s so so fun.

That’s all for today’s blog post. It’s quite late here in Mandaluyong.

Good night!